“The way it was …the way I’d rather it be.”
Whoever said “god made the universe” wasn’t at terms with his own random existence. What are we but a consequence of an instance of sheer chance? The world we live in and its painful uniqueness…is it not proof enough of the randomness that we all thrive in? And yet fail to acknowledge it
There is a certain beauty, if you look at it from outside the sphere of your skeptical influences. To the chaos around you. To me it gives an ephemeral sense of living without boundaries, without the boundations of ethical or moral vocabulary, and without that binding notion of accountability to any one…even god.
This sense of free existentialism is always blasphemed by the “schemers” and their unprovoked deeds of order. The utter need for everything to be in line with the “scheme” disturbs me. Why should this order be forced on things that were meant to be out of order, and who has proof that the order, that they advocate as god’s will, is really so?.
Chaos and order, some say, are in perfect harmonial balance. Yin and yang…positive and negative…even and odd…man and woman…yes you saw that right!
No I’m neither a sexist, nor gender biased. I only feel that the balance, if it does exist, is best exemplified by man and woman. Skeptical? Well then how do you explain the fact that god/nature created two sexes …not three, not four…but “two”. To me that says something, that it was meant to create that balance. And to bias myself, let me go ahead and say that man is the chaotic thriver, and woman the balancing act.
Chaos and ‘his’ minions work in and through all of us. Some of us go ahead and embrace it…the rest of us are always undone by our greed for more.
Chaotic existentialism guarantees two things- satisfaction and self control, as you will never know what you want most, and the only thing that you can possibly control is yourself.
The force be with you
